I decided to commit suicide with my wife, but God miraculously made me live
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Manmin News
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January 29, 2005 |
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 Dongsun Lee (4-16th Parish, Men Mission)
I had been a chief priest of Buddhism at a mountain for thirty years
I was born in Seoul. When I was 12 years old, the Korean War broke out and I lost my father and
brothers. After the war, I had to live a very tough life serving my mother, delivering newspapers and working in the field of construction work.
In 1962, I became weak and contracted pulmonary tuberculosis, so for recuperation I went to a rural village where water and air were clear and pure. At the back of the house I stayed at was a small Buddhism temple in the mountain and a chief priest of the temple supplied me with effecdtive medicinal stuffs. I felt deeply thankful for him because I had been rejected and abandoned by many people around me, and I began to believe in Buddhism. Meanwhile I recovered health, and got married. After that I had been in military service for three years and came back to the temple.
During the time when I had been a chief priest of Buddhism since 1984, I always dreamed a strange dream after finishing great Buddhstic meetings. In that dream I found myself under the cross of a certain church. During my term of chief priest, I suffered from myocardial infarction and became skeptical about Buddhism because of its internal dissensions. Finally I came back home after 30 years of a Buddhist.
I was forced to decide to commit suicide with my wife
While I was wholly devoted to Buddhism and stayed at the temple, my wife suffered from raising two sons and a daughter. In 1996, when I retutrened home, I did not know what to do to earn a living. One day I met an old friend of mine and began to rely on him in many aspects. Later he asked me to put up security for his business funds.
I was not able to stand in pledge for him, but I was compelled to put the guaranty money of my house-rent in pledge for him. Unfortunately, his business fell into difficulties and he concealed hi straces. I received the bills of his debts and came to sit on a heap of debts in a single day. I tried to pay back by getting private loans and borrowing money at daily interests, but it was out of reach of my efforts. Private moneylenders hounded me violently and sometimes I was threatened in a car for a few hours. As a result, in summer 2002, I got stricken with severe headache, hearing impairment, and speech impediment caused by mental pressure.
At the hospital, I was diagnosed with hydrocephalus. Doctors advised me to receive operation, but I did not because because I had neither money for operation nor desire to live anymore. I just tried to overcome deathlike pain by taking painkillers. Everything was useless, and I could not stand up well because my right leg became paralyzed. At last I determined to commit suicide with my wife due to mental and physical pains on debts and diseases.
I was evangelized by a policeman
On November 27, 2003, that day before I put my decision into action, I was arrested by policemen walking on a public square. It happened to me because one of the moneylenders had accused me to the court.
At the police station, I met Deacon Joong-ik Cheon (Vice president of Policemen Mission of Manmin Joong-ang Church), and he turned my life completely. When he found I was suffering from mental and physical pains, he kindly testified to the living God and he helped me to receive an automatic telephonic prayer of Rev. Dr. Jaerock Lee.
On that Sunday morning, he drove his car before my house and told me to attend church worship service. I was so moved at his kind and loving care that I could not reject his invitation, although it was difficult for me to follow because of headache, heart disease, backache, and leg paralysis. At Manmin Joong-ang Church, I was shocked after hearing the message of 'Spirit, Soul, and Body' preached by Rev. Dr. Jaerock Lee. His profound message was a great surprise to me who had been looking for truth for decades. Next Sunday while I was coming back home after listening to his messages, I shed tears without knowing the reason.
When I suffered from the pressure of debts and diseases, church members including my district leader visited me and encouraged me. I was so thankful for their love and gradually my faith grew.
After shaking hands with Rev. Dr. Jaerock Lee
In May 2004, I attended Rev. Dr. Lee's birthday with Yoonsook Song my district leader, and I shook hands with him. At that time, a surprise happened to me. I felt as if something hot moved in my heart and at the same time cool wind touched my heart. I experienced a great joy and ecstasy, and when I came out of there, I realized the pains and symptoms of bad headache, backache, leg paralysis, speech impediment, and myocardial infarction had disappeared.
 From the early June of 2004 when I was healed of a few years of diseases, I began to work at the construction site and attended the divine healing meetings of Manmin Prayer Center. Each meeting, I repented of idol-worshiping and my heart was filled with joy and hope for heaven.
My family also met the living God
I preached about the living God to my wife, daughter, and son-in-law, and they began to attend church. My wife Eulsoon Park was healed of 30-year hemorrhoids and its symptoms such as bleeding, swelling, dizziness, and tinnitus by the prayer of Rev. Dr. Jaerock Lee and Muan sweet water.
I always shed tears whenever I am reminded of the amazing grace and love of God. Now I am enjoying the happier days than ever before. I volunteer at serving brothers and sisters in Christ with noodles as lunch every Sunday and diligently deliver Manmin Joong-ang News to preach the living God I met. I give all thanks and glory to God, and I also give thanks to Rev. Dr. Jaerock Lee who prayed for me with all his heart.
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