By the Grace of God I Was Released from Addiction to Playing Internet Games!
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May 09, 2010 |
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Brother Dong-gun Chung (14-2nd Parish, 1st College Mission)
Happy Family: Senior Deaconess Soeun Kim (2-4th Women's Mission), Brother Dong-gun Chun, and Deacon Jinho Chung.l
My father and mother met each other for the first time at 10, and for decades they shared their unchanging love and got married at 27. But I was born with the right eye blind, and my father failed in his business, so that we had to suffer from difficulties at home and my mother even thought of committing suicide. At that moment a fire like a big log entered into her heart and she suddenly felt she would be able to live if she would go to church. Thus, the fire of the Holy Spirit came upon her, and my family began to attend church by the grace of God.
In 1997, my father and mother happened to hear the message of Dr. Jaerock Lee at the Far East Broadcasting Center Radio, and were so touched. We had lived in Cheonan City and it took less than 2 hours to go to Seoul. One day my father was guided to Manmin Central Church located in Seoul in his dream. In reality we went to the church and registered. In April of 1998 I began to follow my father and mother when they went to Seoul to attend Manmin Central Church. In the car wheeling to Seoul I spent the two hours in praying and singing praises. At the end of that year a branch church was established in Cheonan and we faithfully served the church as starting members.
Experiencing the power of God at the traffic accident
It happened when I entered an elementary school. On the way back home, I met with a big traffic accident. My jean was torn into pieces, but there was no serious injure but some scratches on my skin and a fracture on my right leg. When this accident was conveyed to my parents, they offered the prayer of thanksgiving for God's protection.
That day I saw 'faith'-shaped cloud on the sky that was felt like God's encouragement to me. I received the prayer of Dr. Jaerock Lee by faith and was healed by God's grace. When the compensation was given, my parents gave it as the offering of thanksgiving for God's protection and healing. In September of 1999, we moved into Seoul, near Manmin Central Church.
Leading a gloomy life in my childhood without true faith
At the third grade of the elementary school, I began to be indulged in playing computer games. From that time until 18 years old I had been in the deep mire of playing games on the Internet. And in my teens I felt seriously stressed about my right eye's blindness. My left eyesight began to worsen, and so I felt tired fast on my eyes, and often fell down or run into others. I was even mistaken for a squint and mocked by other students.
I was in the mire of addiction to playing games, and at the same time I suffered from sorrow and became frustrated at the fact I had been born with a disability. I fell into such a deep mire of frustration. I even spent the Lord's Day on playing games at local PC rooms around the church. Since I befriended the world, I had no hope and dream, but instead a desire to be put to death. My study was so poor at school. I had no confidence in anything I did. I was possessed with the fear of going to hell. I distanced myself from God little by little.
Repenting thoroughly through my mother's horrible dream
When my faith became worse, God revealed my spirituality through my mother's dreams. In the July of 2008, when I was 18 years old, my mother dreamed a strange and dreadful dream. In her dream the Internet streamlines seemed to be alive and wriggle, and divided into two parts that were emitting fire. I was looking at them with interest but she felt ominous from them and put out the fire. At that moment the two fires turned into two fearful serpents and the two combined into a big serpent. My mother gripped its head and cried to me, "Dong-gun! Bring a hammer! We have to shatter this abomination into pieces completely."
That day she told her dream to me and asked me, "You have many things to tell me, don't you? After praying, let's talk." She went to the church and attended Daniel Prayer Meeting. She didn't force me but instead gave me a chance for me to choose the right way on my own. Even if I chose improper ways, she patiently waited for me with love and tears. I knew this way of her advice and love well, so I looked back at many things in my life.
At last my mother came back home from Daniel Prayer Meeting. I knelt down before her and confessed that I had been indulged in playing computer games, watched forbidden things on the Internet for long and harbored sorrows and darkness in my heart. Next day she led a repentance worship service for me and prayed for me with the handkerchief (Acts 19:11-12).
My life totally changed at the summer retreat
In July of the same year I attended the Students' Summer Retreat and experienced fiery works of the Holy Spirit. While singing praises with all my heart, God's amazing grace came upon me and my heart and body became scorched. I came to think. 'What is the good of worldly pleasures, secular music, pornography, and obscene material? All these things are vanity!' and then strength and power to cut off the world and the worldly things came upon me. I deleted all secular songs that had been recorded in my mobile and also deleted all the game programs that were in my computer. I felt a strong liberty from the yoke of sin and my heart became filled with joy. Praises did not stop from my mouth, and the love for God and the Lord and the longing heart for the shepherd increased within me.
From that time on my life totally changed. I worshiped God in truth and in spirit and planted the Word of God into my heart, and tried my best to practice it with prayer. When I was told the duty of students is to study hard, I began to study hard and gained good points at school. I won the first or second place at my class, and also many prizes in various fields. At the graduation I was awarded the prize for recognition as an excellent and exemplary student by a congressman.
Faith, hope and love filled my heart
God filled my heart with grace and joy more than I had done for Him. My faith grew up while I was attending the worship services with all my heart, received greater strength to practice the Word while I was praying fervently with the heart of spirit. In April I prepared for the College and Canaan Missions' Devotional Service with all my heart and 3-day fasting, and my offering was recorded the biggest amount in the College Mission.
I have recently looked up to sky. Just to see blue sky, white clouds, and rainbows, tears begin to well up. When left alone, I raise up my praising voice and confess my love for God. I give thanks to God who has changed my heart into Light.
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